Oh, Inverted World

I finished my last summer school class - Intro to Desktop Publishing - and it was a bit of an exercise in frustration. I got so busted. I dork around for fun on professional-grade Adobe products, so I thought this was going to be cake. Think again, sucker... The software we used was just different enough from what I'm used to to feel backward and uncomfortable - sensations I'm not used to here on Planet Geek. I felt as if I was working upside-down, locked in a pair of those late-80s gravity boots. I quickly stressed, and turned into an absolute whiney little b*tch... I feel so bad for my prof. My classmates will be in Tech Writing with me starting Thursday, so I'll have a chance to redeem myself, but I'll probably never have/see this prof again, so I feel bad to have been such a punk. Ah, well.

The stress and regret sent me into a bit of a funk, until today I saw a bumper sticker that said: "Where are we going? And what am I doing in this handbasket?" I busted out laughing - it felt like such a good fit, like (once again) God's sense of humor dumped cold water on my face and restored some perspective.

I start school tomorrow morning and have no clue how to feel about it. I guess I'll just roll...

Like many of us in blogland, many of my thoughts and prayers are with Jan and her dad. Yesterday's post struck me with inversion - thus my ripping off the Shins for the title of this blog. Jan, who has sat with so many in such similar circumstances, now sits for her dad and herself. The prayer-giver needs prayer. And don't we all.

I thank God that in so many ways His Kingdom is inverted - that ultimate victory came through apparent defeat, that the most unloveable are valued most highly, that LIFE is only ever acheived through death... and I'm trying to learn to be well when things are upside-down...

Fiat Lux....