The Misapprehended "Yes"
OK, So I'm cleaning my room this morning, letting the studying I did for my lit test last night gel in my brain, and I catch myself reading over old class assignments. I'm sitting here, reading over old pages, looking for comments like "excellent!" and "good insights" as if to say "LOVE ME!!!", or at least "YOU LIKE ME, YOU REALLY REALLY LIKE ME!"
What total crap.
Why am I such a spiritual lemming? I know -- not just head know, but sometimes even heart know -- that only one Yes is worthwhile, and that's God's. So why do I still so often turn and run toward the stale waters of human approval? There's only death there, all the more deadly because it so cleverly counterfeits life. "All of You is more than enough for all of me." Help me remember that today, especially, as I press into tests and homework and frienships. Lord, smile on me. Make your "Yes" a whisper that drowns out the shouts that try to cater to my need. All I need is You.
To that, my soul says "YES!"
What total crap.
Why am I such a spiritual lemming? I know -- not just head know, but sometimes even heart know -- that only one Yes is worthwhile, and that's God's. So why do I still so often turn and run toward the stale waters of human approval? There's only death there, all the more deadly because it so cleverly counterfeits life. "All of You is more than enough for all of me." Help me remember that today, especially, as I press into tests and homework and frienships. Lord, smile on me. Make your "Yes" a whisper that drowns out the shouts that try to cater to my need. All I need is You.
To that, my soul says "YES!"
posted by jeffmacsimus @ 9:30 AM
5 Comments:
At 9:52 AM,
Anonymous said…
I am always a little shocked as I sing "And all of you is more than enough for all of me...." DUH! But how often do I live as if he isn't enough, as if I need to somehow compensate, fill in the gaps that God is OBVIOUSLY leaving in my life. How can I live in a total God eclipse - realizing that he will completely cover, fill, complete me?
At 6:32 PM,
Erin Bennett said…
It is total crap, but we all want it because when our approval comes from humans, it is so often immediate. When it is from God, he makes us wait. Luckily, it's always worth the wait, and he can show us amazing things!
At 4:39 PM,
jeffmacsimus said…
H. Jane... Hmmm.. who could that be...? YAY!!! You left a comment on my blog! I'm honored and blessed. I hear ya, but believe me, at the moment, the vibe was need, not nostalgic affirmation. Sad, but true.
At 3:14 PM,
gloria said…
you got naked and honest about your hunger on a blog, and looky there, you exposed the hunger and nakedness in the rest of us. Thanks for your honesty.
At 9:24 PM,
Anonymous said…
Jeff Jeff Jeff... oi. I have two things to say: Adam was in the Garden of Eden when there was no sin and he still desired a human companion, even with all the animals in the world there with him. I was going to make a second comment about how if he'd only thought like you we wouldn't be in this mess, but hey, if he thought like you we wouldn't Be at all. It's not bad to feel like Adam, but it's not bad to feel like Paul either.
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